Nikki McKibbin, one of the contestants on the very first season of American Idol, is on the road to recovery after a drug and alcohol addiction that she partly blames on judge Simon Cowell. This oughtta be good.
I came out of Idol with a lack of self-confidence. I think I had my first solo in school when I was 5. … I had never been told I wasn't good enough. Having to hear it for so many weeks from Simon Cowell killed me inside. I couldn't get the shit he had said to me out of my head. It drove me deeper into my depression. I wouldn't say that this was Simon's fault. It just added to the addict that I already was.
We were heavily chaperoned, but I would buy vodka and sneak it into the refrigerator on the bottom floor. If I wasn't too exhausted, I'd have one or two drinks.
We feel a bit sorry for her, seeing as how she was on the first season of the show and had no idea how brutal Simon can be — but then we rewatched one of her performances, and we have to agree she has no business singing. Sorry, Nik. (Clip — featuring a baby Seacrest! — after the jump.)
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SHE SUCKED!! She is lucky she even made it that far. Grow the F up. Give me a break. Simons commenst are G rated for what she deserved to hear on that show. Maybe she could hook up with Marky Mark and they could cry together.
"I wouldn't say that this was Simon's fault."
In all fairness, it doesn't look like she's blaming him.
I've heard better karaoke versions of this song at frat parties.
Wasn't she a stripper before she went on the show?
I would say her "lack of self confidence" came from someone not hugging her enough as a kid, not Simon.
she wasn't TERRIBLE. she just wasn't that great. she at LEAST sounded better than my neighbors dog.
I loved watching Celebrity Rehab with Dr. Drew and Jessica Sierra from Idol was on there. She was quite entertaining.
Boo f*cking hoo. Grow up and stop using a bad experience as an excuse to keep sucking back booze.